My Godless High School Journey

I shared this post maybe a year ago when I was using a different blogging site, and I wanted to share it again in hopes that someone will receive help from my experience. High school can be a very hard time in a person’s life no matter how popular, unpopular, or whatever they may be. Like anything, high school can be the hardest thing you do, if you do it without God.

High school is what you make it. It can be about getting a good education, being a sports’ star, a band geek like I was, or whatever you want. You can choose to show the person that you truly are, or you can choose to pretend to be someone else in order to fit in. You can decide to make good grades, or you can decide to just slide by. In high school, you are faced with many choices There are many good and bad paths to choose from, and unfortunately, like many, I chose the bad ones.

Coming into high school, I had the best, Christian friends that I could have ever asked for, but sooner or later, I pushed them away. Along with those friends, I pushed God out of my life as well, which only sent me down a spiraling funnel of disappointment. I did anything I could to be popular, instead of doing anything I could to please God. I let God down, and I will never get rid of that regret. As I found out, anything without God is bound to fail.

When I first started high school as a freshman, I was in the popular crowd. I was best friends with the girls that everyone wanted to be friends with, I was talking to one of the “lady’s men” of the school, and I was in marching band, which was considered cool at my school. The friends that I had was the best thing that had ever happened to me. I was finally fitting in, and it seemed that they liked me for me. The guy that I was talking to was a true gentleman. We talked all the time. He carried my books, held the door for me, walked me to my sister’s car, called me every night, called me “beautiful” and “angel.” Truly, he was the perfect guy. I was on cloud nine, and nothing was going to stop my happiness.

Sometime within the time spent on my personal, dream cloud, reality shoved me off that cloud. Those best friends that I loved so much had led me into stuff that I am so embarrassed of. I cheated my way through my freshman year academics. I was just making it by with my grades, and that was only because of cheating. I had started to say words that I would never say today, I had turned into a mean girl, and I looked down on everyone. Oh, and that perfect guy, well, let’s just say he had a good front on. I don’t know if it was him messing around with other girls, or the fact that he got inches from my face, yelling at me in front of my whole class that showed me who he really was. Reality had finally hit me, and it hit me hard.

Needless to say, I lost all of those people in my life after freshman year. They were fake friends that started partying, drinking, you name it. I got rid of that jerky guy in my life as well. All of the sin that I had committed helped to show me that I had never truly accepted God. If I had, I would have felt bad, but I didn’t. The only thing I felt was ignorant for trusting people I shouldn’t have.

Fortunately, I did get saved during my junior year, but unfortunately, my relationship with God still wasn’t great. I still let the kids at my school ruin my relationship with God as the dreaded peer pressure made a huge impact on my life, and I didn’t have a good relationship with God until after I graduated. I can’t understand how God could have been so merciful to me when I was so horrible to Him. Though, He did, and I am so grateful to Him for that.

Today, I look back at my high school years, and I wouldn’t go back for anything. I do miss the Christian friends that I became really close to my junior and senior year, but I wouldn’t go back to a time that I wasn’t close to God. Now, I’m happier than I’ve ever been because I have that relationship with God that I’ve always dreamed of having. If I had only put God above popularity in high school, I might have had it sooner.

For anyone in high school or about to be in high school, please take my advice, and follow God. I thought that pleasing everyone at school and being liked was what high school was about, but it’s not. Those popular kids that made me feel so inferior in high school aren’t even around anymore. I let them make such an impact in my life, and now, they aren’t in my life at all. If I could go back, I would choose my Christian friends. The popular kids that I graduated with are still partying, drinking, and doing drugs, while the Christians in the unpopular crowd are making something of themselves. They are the ones that are becoming successful. Trust me when I say that it isn’t worth being popular, but it will be worth following God. Don’t be like me. Don’t let people ruin your relationship with God just because they seem to have it all. No person, or status is worth turning your back on God. Take the chance while you can, and choose God.


To the Pretending Christian.

360 days. That is the amount of days a year that I see someone from my past, and sometimes, even people in my life today, do something in the devil’s favor, while turning around and proclaiming to be living for God. Sure Christians can get off the right path, but can they still profess to living their life for God while living a life of sin? Are they just putting on a show for the world?

Let’s first look at the anatomy of a pretending Christian. Isaiah 29:13 – “Wherefore the Lord said, Forasmuch as this people draw near [me] with their mouth, and with their lips do honour me, but have removed their heart far from me, and their fear toward me is taught by the precept of men:” This verse begins with the Lord saying that people will “draw near” him with their mouth and “honour” him with their lips. What does this mean? This means that people will confess the Lord with their words. They will tell the world that they are Christians and praise Him in public, but let’s look at the next statement. The Bible says, “but have removed their heart far from me.” So, they had just professed God with their mouth, but their heart isn’t with those words. This is exactly what is wrong with many “Christians” in the world today. They are praising God in public, but when it comes to their hearts, God doesn’t live there.

We can see this same type of behavior in churches on special occasions like Christmas and Easter. When the doors open on Easter and Christmas, you better believe that crowds of people are going to pile in, which is great, but are they coming for the right reasons? On Easter Sunday, I saw endless amount of social media posts of people, who are usually seen bragging about having a hangover, dressed up in their best to go to church. They even included Bible verses as their captions that praised Jesus’ resurrection, and they were clearly proud of going to church. Though, where were they the Sunday before that? Why weren’t they proud to praise God on a normal Sunday? The church doors were open, and they had every opportunity to go, but they weren’t there. Were they just simply putting on a show?

The next statement says, “their fear toward me is taught by the precept of men.” Today, many have diminished the fear of the Lord. The world has painted a pretty picture of God and his mercy, but God isn’t all about mercy, it’s a huge part of Him, but the part of Him that says we will be sent to Hell for our sins has been ignored by many today. To fear God, number one, we have to be saved, and number two, we have to believe that God will do what He says. When God says that He will punish us for sin, we need to take that seriously and live the best we can for Him because consequences will come. When we become saved, the fear for consequences will be placed in our hearts, therefore, we will try to abide by God. Though, when society only shows the world His mercy, that’s the only thing people will see. They don’t see what He is capable of, but rather, what He will forgive for. Therefore, they live how they want, thinking in their minds that God will simply forgive them, so they don’t see any reason to live right. Without punishment, comes no responsibility for their actions.

Again, don’t get me wrong, I know Christians can get off the right path, I’ve done it many of times, but true Christians won’t stay on the wrong path. When I do wrong, God lets me know about it right then and there. True Christians won’t be able to praise God while living a life of sin because they will be ashamed of their sin. When a true Christian does something sinful, God is going to let them know about it. He may allow the person to stay on the path of sin for awhile, but sooner or later, God is going to convict them about it, and begin drawing them back in. When God does this, a true Christian that loves God like they should will find their way back to Him.

In conclusion, for the pretending Christians out there, God says, “He that trusteth in his own heart is a fool: but whoso walketh wisely, he shall be delivered.” A person that trusts in their own ability instead of putting their heart in God is considered a fool by God. If you don’t trust in God and live a life for Him, you don’t have anything. When God truly saves a person, they won’t want to live in sin anymore. If you are still wanting to live in your sin, maybe your relationship with God needs to be analyzed. It is good for anyone to evaluate their relationship with God to make sure that they are on the right path, and it is especially important to evaluate your salvation. Consider who you are serving: the devil or God. If you see the devil as being the one you’re following, do something about it. If you doubt your salvation, talk to a Christian you are close to, or better yet, talk to God. As long as God is giving you a breath of air, you still have time to turn around your life and be a true Christian for God.

Where Is Your Treasure?

Matthew 6:19- “Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal:” 20-“But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal:” 21- “For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.”

Okay, put yourself in this situation: Your house is burning down, and you can only grab any five things out of your entire house, no matter how big, small, heavy, light. What will you get? Will you get your favorite dress? Favorite book? TV? Take a moment, and write these things on a piece of paper. Take a good look at them. Can you see a pattern going on?

For me, I would probably get my sewing machine, my journal, my laptop, my phone, and my first Bible my parents got me when I was little. There’s certainly a theme that is going on with my list; all of these things are materials. They are all made out of something; plastic, metal, computer chips, or whatever else. Each one of these things have the ability of being broken, ripped, busted, etc.Looking at my list, I see a pattern of MY.

These things are all selfish things. Yes, even the Bible. The Bible has the ability to be selfless, but in my case, it’s not. If I was getting the Bible to spread the word, then it would be an unselfish act, but that’s not what I was doing here. I said that I would get the Bible because it’s MY Bible, the first one I’ve ever had. Me grabbing the Bible was for my own pleasure of keeping the Bible. Same goes for the sewing machine, laptop, journal, and phone. Did I choose the sewing machine for the good of others, or did I get it for myself? Did I choose my laptop because I wanted to spread the word of God online? Did I choose my journal and laptop because they are going to help the world in anyway? No.  These things can all be replaced, but because it is MINE, I want to keep it. I admit, my journal can’t really be replaced because it has all of my memories, but it isn’t the past that I should be dwelling on, it’s the present.

After looking at the list of material things, I realized that those aren’t the things that I should be worried about keeping, it’s my relationship with God. Should we overwhelm our hearts with items that can be broken? No. We should be surrounding ourselves with things that cannot be. Like, salvation for instance. Instead of worrying about the material things in a situation like a fire, I should be thankful that I would be leaving with my salvation, Jesus, God, the hope for a better day, and an eternity in Heaven.

When a person’s house burns down, the first thing that usually comes into a person’s mind is sorrow for them losing all of their possessions, and it really is awful. Though, we don’t show overwhelming joy that the people are simply okay. In a world where material things have become so important, the most important thing has went out of the radar: salvation.

Salvation is the most treasured possession that we can possibly have. No matter how expensive or rare a material thing might be, it can always be destroyed within seconds. What cannot ever be destroyed? God and our relationship with the Savior, Jesus Christ. Instead of having our minds on things of this world, we should be amounting our lives with things that are going to go with us when we leave this Earth. No, my laptop isn’t going with me to Heaven, neither is my journal, phone, sewing machine, or my Bible. The thing that is going to go with me is my salvation and what I’ve done with the life that God has given me. The real treasure is found in the things of God. When we live for God, every work that we do for Him is going to be another treasure that we have in Heaven. These treasures aren’t temporary like on Earth, but eternal.

After writing this post, if someone were to ask me what the most important thing to me is, it would be Jesus Christ. He is everything: salvation, hope, joy, peace, mercy, and so on. Jesus Christ is the treasure that I don’t deserve. Take another look at the list you made. Have you changed your mind? Do the material things seem less important than before? Tell me, where is your treasure?

The Prophecy of the Dead Sea

I don’t look much into current events, but my dad brought this to my attention the other day, and I thought that it was a pretty interesting fulfillment to the Bible.
Ever heard of the Dead Sea? If you don’t recall, you will probably recognize it as the sea that a person can float in with no effort at all because of its high amount of salt; that’s how I always remembered it in school anyways. The Dead Sea is a salt lake located on a fault line primarily in Middle East Asia that borders Israel, the West Bank, and Jordan. The lake is the lowest point on Earth at 1,388 ft below sea-level on land, and it is 1,237 ft deep. Being around 8.6 times saltier than the ocean, it is hard for any life to take home in it (Shurkin).

In the Bible, the Dead Sea is known as several names; Vale of Siddim in Genesis, Plains Sea in Joshua, and the Former Sea in Zechariah. It was never known as a good thing of the Earth. For instance, in Genesis, the Vale of Siddim was where a war was fought between four kings and five others. During the war, Lot was taken captive, and Abraham had went out into the war to bring Lot home.

From a biblical standpoint, the Dead Sea is at such a low point because of the volcanic and tectonic activity that occurred when God reigned his wrath against Sodom and Gomorrah. The Dead Sea is just north of the two cities that God judged for participating in homosexual behavior, and He sent fire and brimstone to these cities as punishment, creating quakes, which reached to the northern area.

“Then the LORD rained upon Sodom and upon Gomorrah brimstone and fire from the LORD out of heaven;” (Genesis 19:24).

The shifting of the ground formed a sunken area, and it combined with the river that was already present, creating a lake, which is the large body of water, the Dead Sea.
As time goes on, earthquakes are becoming more prevalent in the area of the Dead Sea, and the lake is drying up at a tremendous speed. Due to the shifting tectonics caused by the earthquakes, the water is sinking deeper and deeper into the Earth as the ground moves, removing more and more water from the lake.

“And the same hour was there a great earthquake, and the tenth part of the city fell, and in the earthquake were slain of men seven thousand: and the remnant were affrighted, and gave glory to the God of heaven” (Revelation 11:13 KJV).
“And there were voices, and thunders, and lightnings; and there was a great earthquake, such as was not since men were upon the earth, so mighty an earthquake, and so great” (Revelation 16:18 KJV).
“And he opened the bottomless pit; and there arose a smoke out of the pit, as the smoke of a great furnace; and the sun and the air were darkened by reason of the smoke of the pit” (Revelation 9:2 KJV).

Many times, God mentions earthquakes being of the last days of the Earth. For God’s chosen people, the Jews, He said that there would be a way for them to escape the disastrous occurrences the moment that Jesus comes back through the rapture.

“Then shall the LORD go forth, and fight against those nations, as when he fought in the day of battle. And his feet shall stand in that day upon the mount of Olives, which is before Jerusalem on the east, and the mount of Olives shall cleave in the midst thereof toward the east and toward the west, and there shall be a very great valley; and half of the mountain shall remove toward the north, and half of it toward the south. And ye shall flee to the valley of the mountains; for the valley of the mountains shall reach unto Azal: yea, ye shall flee, like as ye fled from before the earthquake in the days of Uzziah king of Judah: and the LORD my God shall come, and all the saints with thee” (Zechariah 14:3-5 KJV).

In this passage, God says that there will be an opening in the valley, where the Dead Sea once was located, for the people of Jerusalem to escape at the moment of Jesus’ return when the battle of Armageddon is occurring. Due to the fact that the Dead Sea will be dried up by this point, this will be possible.

The Earth and heavens will be destroyed by all of the tragic events of the Tribulation, so God says that He will make a new Earth and heavens.

“For, behold, I create new heavens and a new earth: and the former shall not be remembered, nor come into mind. But be ye glad and rejoice for ever in that which I create: for, behold, I create Jerusalem a rejoicing, and her people a joy. And I will rejoice in Jerusalem, and joy in my people: and the voice of weeping shall be no more heard in her, nor the voice of crying. There shall be no more thence an infant of days, nor an old man that hath not filled his days: for the child shall die an hundred years old; but the sinner being an hundred years old shall be accursed. And they shall build houses, and inhabit them; and they shall plant vineyards, and eat the fruit of them. They shall not build, and another inhabit; they shall not plant, and another eat: for as the days of a tree are the days of my people, and mine elect shall long enjoy the work of their hands” (Isaiah 65:17-22 KJV).

The new heavens and Earth that God speaks about here will be the heavens and Earth that those that are saved will begin their eternity with our Lord and Savior. Unfortunately for those that are not saved, this will be the beginning of their eternity in torment.

In summary, the Bible portrays that God is drying up the Dead Sea in preparation for the end times. The dried land will give the Jews the opportunity to flee the quakes and volcanic activity. Whether or not one believes that this is a prophecy fulfilling, it is happening. Let me know what you think. Prophesy of God or nature running its course?


Works Cited
“The Dead Sea Geology and End Times Prophecy.” Geology and End-Times Prophecy. N.p., n.d. Web. 23 Feb. 2016.
Shurkin, Joel. “10 Things You Didn’t Know About the Dead Sea.” TwistedSifter. N.p., 24 June 2012. Web. 23 Feb. 2016.

You Shouldn’t Be A Christian If…

Being a Christian is the hardest thing that I’ve ever went through. It is a continuous fight to live for God and try to live up to what He wants me to be, and I still don’t reach what I should actually be for God. It is impossible to live up to what God would have me to be, for He is perfect, and I’m always failing. There are many times that I struggle in life, and honestly, I wouldn’t be in those situations if I wasn’t a Christian. Being a Christian isn’t for the weak, it’s for the strong, which I am not, but with God, I can be. I want anyone considering being a Christian to really think about what I’m about to say.

You shouldn’t be a Christian if…

1) You want to have a lot of friends. Let’s face it, being a Christian doesn’t exactly attract friends. When you become a Christian, that automatically excludes you from so many groups of people in the world, such as the ones who drink, the ones who sleep around, etc. Being a Christian, you will need Christian friends that will help encourage your walk for God, not the opposite. If you accept friends that are living in the world, your walk for God will suffer, for it will bring sin into you life.

Along with being a Christian comes responsibilities that the world might not like. You will need to witness to the world and represent God, which doesn’t exactly draw in people. When you are standing up for God, and denying the acts of the world, worldly people won’t want to be your friend. I heard this many times before I got saved, and I didn’t think it was true. How could my friends leave me? Though, I learned the hard way when I didn’t want to partake in sin anymore, and my friends didn’t want to hang out with me. Thankfully, God will send friends into your life that will stand for God beside you, which is exactly what He did for me. I don’t have a lot of friends, but I have three, Godly best friends that mean so much more than three dozen worldly friends would. You have to choose if you want a lot of friends in the world, or if you want to stand beside friends sent from God who will help spread you to spread His word.

2) If you want to live in the world. Being a Christian includes a lot of sacrifice. You’re not going to be able to drink, smoke, cuss, go clubbing, or have “casual” dates. If you want that kind of life, Christianity isn’t for you. A Christian has to go against what the world is telling them to do, and simply abide by what God is telling them to do. God isn’t of the world, so Christians, who are followers of God, shouldn’t be either.

3) If you want to abide by your rules. When you become a Christian, you aren’t in charge anymore. You have signed your life over to God, and it is now up to you to abide by that contract. When you accept Jesus into your heart, what you are really saying is that you are promising to live by His word, and abide by the rules and commandments that He has given to us through the Bible. If you want to continue on your own path, God won’t be able to live through you.

4) If you are willing to die for your sins. Please ask yourself right now, are you prepared to die and go to Hell, simply for the time on Earth that we aren’t even guaranteed? If you decide to deny God, God has no other choice but to deny you in Heaven. Life on Earth while living in sin is fun for the short time that you are here, but once your soul has passed from this Earth, there is no going back, and you have chosen either the devil’s Hell or God’s Heaven. If your sin here is worth more to you than where you will spend eternity, Christianity isn’t for you.

You should be a Christian if…

1) If you are willing to give/sacrifice your life to God. This doesn’t include a trip to church on Sundays. Living for God means that you read your Bible, pray, witness, and represent God. You will have to give up a lot for God, and this includes even friends, and maybe even family. Thankfully, my family are Christians, and they help me in my walk with God. Though, I have had to give up a lot of friends that were hurting my relationship with God, and though it wasn’t easy, it was well worth the sacrifice to better my relationship with God.

Some sacrifices may be as simple as either going to church on Sunday morning, or choosing to go swimming instead. You will have to make sacrifices that are for the glory of God, and although, they seem tough at the moment, it will be worth it when God blesses you for listening to Him.

2) If you are prepared for hate. People are not always willing to accept what Christians believe. A lot of people want to continue in their sin, which is why they are so adamant about denying God. People of the world hate God for He tries to take away the sin that they so love. The question is…Will you be able to love those that show hate to you? Will you be able to show them love even when they mock God? Will you be able to tell them about God even if they don’t want to listen? And will you be willing to brunt the affects that come with standing up for God? If you are willing to withstand critics for the person who died on the cross and went through horrific beatings and mocking so that you could go to Heaven, then you should seek God.

3) If you are truly sorry for your sins. If you truly understand the sacrifice that Jesus paid for your sins, and you are truly sorry for this and your past, then God will be willing to accept you. To become truly saved by God, one must acknowledge that they are a sinner and they must believe that Jesus died on the cross for our sins. When a person truly believes that in their heart and are sincerely sorry for what they have done, that is when God will open up their heart to salvation.

4) If you want to go to Heaven. In the world today, so many people speak about different ways to reach Heaven, but guess what, there is only ONE way. That one way is God, and until a person is saved, they will not be able to reach Heaven one day. God sent His son, Jesus to die on the cross so that all could go to Heaven if they would simply repent of their sins. God doesn’t make becoming a Christian hard. The journey afterwards gets a little rough, but the final destination is well worth it. If you want to go to Heaven, seek God.

I’ve made this post because becoming a Christian isn’t something that you should do on a whim. Being a Christian is a serious dedication, and you have to be up to the task. When I got saved, I wasn’t up to the task, and I wish that I had had someone to tell me what I would face. Having Jesus in my heart is the best thing to ever happen to me, and through all of the struggles that I’ve faced as a Christian, He has never left me. God and our eternity means so much more than having friends, or being “cool” in the world. Please make your choice count. Is Christianity for you?