I shared this post maybe a year ago when I was using a different blogging site, and I wanted to share it again in hopes that someone will receive help from my experience. High school can be a very hard time in a person’s life no matter how popular, unpopular, or whatever they may be. Like anything, high school can be the hardest thing you do, if you do it without God.
High school is what you make it. It can be about getting a good education, being a sports’ star, a band geek like I was, or whatever you want. You can choose to show the person that you truly are, or you can choose to pretend to be someone else in order to fit in. You can decide to make good grades, or you can decide to just slide by. In high school, you are faced with many choices There are many good and bad paths to choose from, and unfortunately, like many, I chose the bad ones.
Coming into high school, I had the best, Christian friends that I could have ever asked for, but sooner or later, I pushed them away. Along with those friends, I pushed God out of my life as well, which only sent me down a spiraling funnel of disappointment. I did anything I could to be popular, instead of doing anything I could to please God. I let God down, and I will never get rid of that regret. As I found out, anything without God is bound to fail.
When I first started high school as a freshman, I was in the popular crowd. I was best friends with the girls that everyone wanted to be friends with, I was talking to one of the “lady’s men” of the school, and I was in marching band, which was considered cool at my school. The friends that I had was the best thing that had ever happened to me. I was finally fitting in, and it seemed that they liked me for me. The guy that I was talking to was a true gentleman. We talked all the time. He carried my books, held the door for me, walked me to my sister’s car, called me every night, called me “beautiful” and “angel.” Truly, he was the perfect guy. I was on cloud nine, and nothing was going to stop my happiness.
Sometime within the time spent on my personal, dream cloud, reality shoved me off that cloud. Those best friends that I loved so much had led me into stuff that I am so embarrassed of. I cheated my way through my freshman year academics. I was just making it by with my grades, and that was only because of cheating. I had started to say words that I would never say today, I had turned into a mean girl, and I looked down on everyone. Oh, and that perfect guy, well, let’s just say he had a good front on. I don’t know if it was him messing around with other girls, or the fact that he got inches from my face, yelling at me in front of my whole class that showed me who he really was. Reality had finally hit me, and it hit me hard.
Needless to say, I lost all of those people in my life after freshman year. They were fake friends that started partying, drinking, you name it. I got rid of that jerky guy in my life as well. All of the sin that I had committed helped to show me that I had never truly accepted God. If I had, I would have felt bad, but I didn’t. The only thing I felt was ignorant for trusting people I shouldn’t have.
Fortunately, I did get saved during my junior year, but unfortunately, my relationship with God still wasn’t great. I still let the kids at my school ruin my relationship with God as the dreaded peer pressure made a huge impact on my life, and I didn’t have a good relationship with God until after I graduated. I can’t understand how God could have been so merciful to me when I was so horrible to Him. Though, He did, and I am so grateful to Him for that.
Today, I look back at my high school years, and I wouldn’t go back for anything. I do miss the Christian friends that I became really close to my junior and senior year, but I wouldn’t go back to a time that I wasn’t close to God. Now, I’m happier than I’ve ever been because I have that relationship with God that I’ve always dreamed of having. If I had only put God above popularity in high school, I might have had it sooner.
For anyone in high school or about to be in high school, please take my advice, and follow God. I thought that pleasing everyone at school and being liked was what high school was about, but it’s not. Those popular kids that made me feel so inferior in high school aren’t even around anymore. I let them make such an impact in my life, and now, they aren’t in my life at all. If I could go back, I would choose my Christian friends. The popular kids that I graduated with are still partying, drinking, and doing drugs, while the Christians in the unpopular crowd are making something of themselves. They are the ones that are becoming successful. Trust me when I say that it isn’t worth being popular, but it will be worth following God. Don’t be like me. Don’t let people ruin your relationship with God just because they seem to have it all. No person, or status is worth turning your back on God. Take the chance while you can, and choose God.